
In this poem from my book “Poems from the Northeast,” I consider one of my favorite moments in literary classes (and simultaneously an application of textual analysis to psychology): that moment when the professor frowns, pushes his/her/their glasses up on their nose, coughs, then says: “in this passage, there is a problem with the text.”
IN THIS PASSAGE, THERE IS A PROBLEM WITH THE TEXT
I am a problem in the text
That has never been resolved
A hint, a monstrous suggestion
Which cannot be confirmed
I trouble the mind that wants
To settle like a hen over eggs
I ruffle her up, she clucks uneasily
And pecks at where she thinks I am.
In August, I am an unexpected wind
That hints of winter
I do not answer, I ask.
Always I bring them to the question
With troubled faces, angry expressions;
People clumsily resolve me
To this or that
Proving their points with good evidence
Which they have misinterpreted.
The pages around me
Pose no problems--
My commentary
Is relegated to a footnote here or there,
A short section in the appendix.
With so much else decided,
One word or phrase cannot trouble overlong--
They forget me.
They are happy with the story being told.
But still, inconveniently, I come back,
I perplex, I mock without mockery;
There may be some treasure in me.
They think I have a purpose
But they don't know what it is,
Feeling, suspecting,
That if they did it would make
All the difference.
And I ask,
What difference would it make?
I am the corner you didn't turn
When you could
And couldn't turn when you would,
Because I too exist,
And not only for the greed and delight
Your mind has in pictures.
I have the right to live
Not simply as a point in space
But as myself at that point.
Yet attack the point how you will,
When you come there
I am gone and you know nothing.
I evaporate, I drift away
And you can stand all day
Like a lovelorn schoolboy
For the date who didn't show up.
You let me be at peace
And I am with you;
You gain confidence,
You think this means
That now you will know all--
You chase and I evade.
You punish and I bow to punishment.
You walk away in anger
And I go back to what I was doing.
You have lured me to interpretation
And I have been lured,
But more and more
I see the trap
And am impatient with such stupidities.
You always think you know me,
And even when it seems so,
I slide from your mind,
And you grope
And reach for the light,
And wonder what I meant.
Shadowoperator (Victoria Leigh Bennett)