The Learning Curve of Life and Death–Richard Gilbert’s fine memoir “Shepherd”

Today, I am sitting inside a comfortable beachside  condo, enjoying a precious tea that a Russian friend kindly provided me with, taking in both its nearly indescribable aroma and its delicate perfumed taste.  It’s a Basilur family tea imported from Sri Lanka, flavored with “natural cornflower, jasmine buds, blue malva, and flavor roasted almond.”  The whiff seems at first to be that of an expensive chocolate, and then one thinks “No, not chocolate exactly–what is that delicious smell?”  I have had the luxury of consuming the tea not only as a wonderful gift, but as something I didn’t have to question or think about much, except that I do sometimes after having a tea from Sri Lanka wonder about how they ever got their crops back in order after that frightful tsunami a number of years ago.

I’ve usually had lamb in the same way, especially enjoying having it with my brother, because he appreciates the visceral element in eating meat from the bone, possibly a holdover from our more carnivorous forebears, but when you see the two of us nibbling along the bones held aloft at a private family dinner (one where our company can’t judge us savages), you know we must be kin.  And as I say, I’ve not usually given a thought to where the sheep come from, how they are raised, how deprived of life, not much in fact beyond what cut I’m eating and how much it costs.  A standard consumer, then.  And this in spite of the fact that we are only two generations away from Appalachian small-time farmers ourselves on our father’s side, though I don’t think they had sheep.

Since I’m trying to be as honest as the book I’m reviewing today is, I will confess that my word picture of the tea above is an attempt to make tea lovers (at least) salivate and want to know more.  And it’s the very word pictures of the Appalachian countryside, scattered from beginning to end of Richard Gilbert’s book Shepherd, the gorgeous imagery and word poetry which demonstrate not only his love itself of the land, his accomodation to its demands that change with where it’s located in the country, but which also in a literary manner justify that love and draw in the eager reader for more.  There is a price to be paid, of course, and that is the price of empathizing with both sheep and shepherd as they suffer as well as glory in life; still, the book itself is true as true can be to living especially in this sense:  despite the pain endured and the trials encountered, one can imagine few who would rather go without it.

A general statement from a little past the middle of the book itself which expresses the author’s feel for his subject is this home truth:  “Something is always going awry, getting out of control, and otherwise cheating one’s fantasies on a farm.”  This might almost be juxtaposed with the statement of a friendly elderly neighbor from another section of the memoir, from a time when the author lived in Bloomington, Indiana in a more residential community before the farm in Athens, Ohio was even thought of except as a remote dream:  “You’re happier than you know.”  Yet, as one reads forward in the book but back and forth in time in the memoir structure of past juxtaposed to present and then retroactively again, one sees a man and his family going through a much-desired learning experience.  One begins to appreciate that it’s the price in lives and lifetime which gives one the right to speak in tropes and epigrams, which are scattered throughout the book, both from the author’s own words and those of the many farmers and breeders whom he acknowledges as his teachers.

One famous epigram I can recall from our own neck of the Appalachian countryside, and which I also found when I went to college for the first time at a school that was located in the midst of an agrarian community, was this punning one:  one seems to praise someone by saying “He’s outstanding in his field,” but a sly grin changes this into “He’s out standing in his field,” idly, of course, not a desirable condition for a farmer or an academic.  And Richard Gilbert has worn many hats during his lifetime, among others those of both an academic and a sheep farmer, while keeping his sense of humor and his modesty intact as if he were constantly mindful of this very epigram.  I first encountered him as a blogger not too long after I signed onto my own site in summer of 2012, and I’ve read his many excellent posts on narrative, memoir and memoir writers, teaching creative non-fiction to students, music, featured guest bloggers, and more (see Richard Gilbert).  And this summer, I was finally able to read his memoir Shepherd, which I recommend not just for anyone who has an interest in farming or raising livestock, but for those with a sincere interest in memoir or even narrative fiction:  the whole aggravated question of pacing, whether of restraining oneself when one desperately wants to go ahead with a treasured project or of knowing how to pace a memoir or fiction and make it suspenseful and fulfilling and true-to-life is at stake, and Richard Gilbert satisfies, even though he himself is constantly questioning and re-evaluating his own motives.

Like Socrates, the wise man knows only that he knows not, and Gilbert allows us to follow him along in his path across the farming scene, and lets us watch him make mistakes, celebrate successes, and confront the long learning curve of life and death that attends upon even the canniest farmer.  He shows us himself in his most soul-searching, depressed, angry, and perhaps even unjust moments, a man willing to learn and seeking answers. He asks at one point, “Was I really just starting to see, so late, that having strong feelings didn’t make me special?  That they certainly didn’t make me good?”  Again and again, he evaluates himself (even to his genetic inheritance of a weak back) against his father’s plans, disabilities, desires, and accomplishments, and those of other farmers he knows.  He describes his struggle to fit into an agrarian community that has its own traditions, suspicions, and ways of doing things, the most innocuous of which perhaps is what he calls “Appalachian Zen”: his friend and employee Sam’s advice to get to work, “Let’s do something even if it is wrong.”  And of his imitation of his father, he finally concludes, after a visionary dream which comes to him near the end of his farming venture, “I’ve never seen that while I tried to emulate him, I also tried to outdo him.”

His farming wisdom and advice?  As he says, “Many of my breeding-stock customers had [a] broader perspective from the beginning.  They didn’t aim to make money.  They came to farming seeking aesthetic pleasure and solace from an angry world.  And a word had arisen to honor food produced with less control but more craft:  artisanal.  The goal wasn’t high production per acre, but food infused with love and time.  Like art….For the highest quality, nothing beats small, slow, and inefficient.”

His philosophy?  His philosophy is not of the cut-and-dried kind which can be communicated in one heartbeat, but of that learning curve, there is certainly at least one wise lesson to be taken in by all of us, and it can be found by tracing an arc from his first sentence (“Childhood dreams cast long shadows into a life”) through to the very last paragraph of his book, when he describes a “sacred moment” which comes back to him as he gets ready to depart his sheep farm for yet another home elsewhere.  He remembers his Georgia boyhood on a farm, when he was four or five and was surrounded on a hillside by butterflies which “infuse[d] me with wonder and joy.  Because I’m so young, I can’t name, but only receive, their gift:  a revelation of life’s unfolding daily abundance:  a miracle.”  And in that word “miracle” is after all the solution to the vexed question of the learning curve of life and death, given us by an articulate, gifted, and knowledgeable memoirist who, while not mincing words about the negatives, avers that they are only the other side of the positives we prefer to see.  But this is to anticipate the reader’s travels with Gilbert, which must be experienced as a whole and followed from beginning to end to fully appreciate such a grand American adventure, and to place the right value on such an inestimable gift to the reading community.  Though it may not lead you to adopt a lamb, it will certainly lead you to ponder, laugh, cry, and dream dreams with at least one academic who has earned his agrarian stripes, and that human shepherd is Richard Gilbert.


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10 responses to “The Learning Curve of Life and Death–Richard Gilbert’s fine memoir “Shepherd”

  1. I enjoyed your post very much and it did make me salivate. I love tea and complex aromas.
    The book sounds lovely too.


    • The book was both an adventure and a revelation to me. Normally, when I think of memoir, I group it with autobiography, but Richard Gilbert has taught me to see autobiography as the staid elder brother of memoir who has to recite his adventures from beginning to end regardless of their value, as a sort of document of record, and memoir as the exciting, thematically-oriented, daring younger brother who jumps back and forth in his recollections, seeing connections and coining philosophy, and teaching the children unruly ways. An example occurs to me: a month ago, I was still reading Vladimir Nabokov’s “autobiography revisited,” “Speak, Memory,” and though I respect Nabokov as a stylist and did eventually finish the autobiography, I was reading it more out of duty than out of real interest: it wasn’t as gripping as Gilbert’s memoir about raising sheep, dealing with various sheep diseases and sundry eccentric neighbors, and his very interesting notion that the reason humans and domesticated animals have been able to work together for centuries is not in spite of anthropomorphism and (from the animals’ side) zoomorphism, but because of them, because each treats the other as one of its own kind. I guess one of the best things about a good memoir from a specialist in a profession or area of interest is when it makes a specialized vocabulary or a sanctum sanctorum accessible to the average reader without needing a glossary or pages and pages of boring explanation. Gilbert just states in simple language what he himself learned as he went along, and it seems quite natural and easy and understandable. And it’s about so much more than just farming or the spirit of it: it’s about the human spirit, its aspirations and defects, achievements and compensations. I do hope you get a chance to read it. It’s available on, and though if you are still in Britain, that would presumably be, for some reason one of the secondary Amazon companies I ordered my and my brother’s copies from was a British global company, so go figure! Anyway, I really enjoyed my read of the book, as you can tell (and I normally read very little non-fiction, except for critical articles and blogs).


      • I discovered a while back what a huge difference there is between memoir and autobiography. I’m very fond of memoir. I could even imagine to write memoir but never an autobiography.
        I’ll see if I can find it. It sounded so appealing.


  2. Thanks for reading and being so encouraging. If your memoir ever comes out, I’ll be one of the first to read it (for a title, how’s about something like “Infinite Portals: The Gates to Reading Pleasure.” Or “The Fandance of Fiction: A Memoir of the Great Reveals”? Sorry. Just goofing. But you get so much read and successfully and thoughtfully commented on in so little time, compared to me, that I wonder how you have time to do anything else! Yet your comments are not those of a person with narrow interests, but those of a person who has much in the way of life experience to draw upon.) Caroline, I’m always delighted to hear from you, and appreciate your attention. I can’t help but think that a memoir from you would be well worth reading.


  3. Richard Gilbert

    Victoria, thank you so much for this gracious and above all discerning review of my memoir. I am impressed and humbled. You saw into my book at least as deeply as I did, and as a book reviewer I can say that’s incredibly hard and rare. So thank you for reading it, reviewing it, and spreading the word. You seem to be its perfect reader. I can only hope others connect half as deeply!


    • Dear Richard, Grace and accuracy are often taught us by the company we keep, and if I show those qualities in respect to your memoir (and I am very much in turn flattered that you consider me an ideal reader), then it’s because I’ve drawn in something from your prose itself to work with. It’s a fine book, and I imagine that many others will find it so as well.


  4. I enjoy, tea, your words and books…so you had me before I began reading. A friend of mine did a stint as a shepherd in Cyprus for a while so that tenuous link (as if I needed that from your review) has made me want to read this…it sounds like a great read for the summer, as well as any other time of year.


    • I think one of the most underrated things about any form of writing that achieves it is pacing, and regardless of whether you read the book in summer or winter, you’ll find the pacing of this book a dream. Being set in a part of the temperate zone (which, however, has freaky moods of not being temperate, as all such places do these days, it seems), it takes place in all four seasons, and whenever you take it up, I feel sure you’ll really enjoy it, especially with your own fervent desire to learn new things. As for the rest of the literary question, it’s beautifully written, has a fine rhetorical flow, and captures a life experience which is original and true. So, go get it! Thanks for your interest and expressions of approval (I love it when people like my words!).


      • Excellent, I am rather picky as to when I start certain books and the weather is a big part in that. Odd idiosyncracies aside, I always enjoy your words, you analysis of books is one I always look forward to reading and I always take a way new ideas and ways of approaching books.


  5. Thanks again for the vote of confidence, Steve. We all like being approved of by the people we ourselves admire, and I’m an avid reader of your blog myself.


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